Coffee of the Day

Bloggers Beach Blast - If you would like to buy some you can always click the link on the side panel. Anyways, this coffee is a mild blend with a chocolate and caramel flavor added, somehow they add this flavor right to the actual beans. When I first brewed it, the entire house filled with the aroma, it was wonderful.

Yesterday afternoon I got a call from Mandy's dentist, the impression they took of her teeth had to be re-done and I had to get there right away. It was time for Lily's nap. I brewed myself a pot of this lovely coffee, combined it with some splenda and 2% milk and put it in my thermos. I got Mandy out of school, drove her to the dentist. Lily fell asleep in her car seat just as I had planed. I sat there in the parking lot, facing some beautiful cherry trees in full bloom, I drank my coffee, and read my book. The windows of the car were open and it was a peaceful still afternoon. Very lovely.

It reminded me of about 12 years ago, when Mandy was the toddler, I would put her in her stroller and walk up to the local coffee shop. By the time I would get there Mandy would be asleep. While Mandy would nap in her stroller, I would enjoy an iced cafe mocha with my mom. We did this about once a week. I really miss my mom right now. Another member of our family is having a hard time, I wish I could be there for my parents, for my brothers, my nieces and nephews. It is hard to be so far away.

While I am unable to fix the problems in the lives of my family members, I am able to fix some things in my life. I am trying to take all of my, I wish I could be there to fix your life, energy and apply it to me and the things that could be fixed. I still have not been able to sleep in about a week from worry. I feel a bit deceived, you see I have always believed that eating right, drinking plenty of water, and daily exercise will cure what ails you. Now I think that is a bunch of bunk. I still can't handle stress. I know it has only been 6 weeks, and since I am only about 10% toward my goal I will most likely start to feel incrementally better as I get fitter and healthier. But, I no longer believe that I am going to become a person who handles stress well, I guess that is just not me. I will be a skinny girl who does not handle stress well, instead of a fat one. I guess that will have to do.

I was watching Oprah in the middle of the night last night. Granted I was half asleep, but it seems like she was saying that marriage is bad and that women loose their identity. What? There were a bunch of women who have chosen to not speak their minds because they are getting or have gotten married. What? Besides my sweet mother, I have never met a woman who is like this. All my friends are very outspoken and feel like marriage has enhanced their ability to be who they are. Am I the only one? Are you guys traditional wives that don't express opinions and smile to try and make your husband happy? I am not like that at all, poor Jeff. I never have to try and guess what he is thinking, and he never has to guess what I am thinking. We just let it all hang out, I try to say things in a nice way, and I don't just say a bunch of mean stuff just to be mean. But, I don't feel like I gave up a part of me to be a wife. Maybe because I was old when I got married? (31). I guess I didn't realize there are still women who are trying to be stepford wives. I think Oprah made that up.

This makes me curious, I am inviting you to weigh in on the most debated issue in our home. Every marriage has a conflict that is absolutely unresolvable. Jeff and I will never change, yet I am curious what you think. So, here goes, what we fight about is the remote control. Not who gets to hold it, because Jeff cannot be in the same room as the tv without, the power, in his hand. We argue about what to do with the remote when we go to bed. One of us thinks it goes on the tv, the other thinks it goes on the coffee table. So where do you put your remote when you go to bed, near the tv or near the seating area? Just curious.

Sorry I haven't written in awhile, it is curious that I get more hits on the days I don't write than on the ones I do, go figure.