Swamped in homework. Only two more weeks of class for two of my classes. Working on final projects, papers and studying for the final. We have decided to spend Turkey day out at a Japanese restaraunt and then finishing up our Christmas shopping. Otherwise Jeff is going to be pretty much in charge of the girls while I try to get all my homework and studying done. It has been fun to have so many deadlines and so much stress, not. I have been having nightmares. All about when I was working. I dream about situations which occured at the workplace that caused me a lot of stress and feel as if I am there and the tension is real. I wake up and spend the day all mad as if it is a current situation instead of something which happened years ago. Weird. I try to tell myself to put it out of my mind, but it is there. I guess feeling pressure is bringing back memories of the last time I was under stress and in an impossible situation.
The funny part is that I have nearly 100% of all the points possible in all four of my classes. I am stressing out over little things. Like learning every detail. It is crazy. I have to learn how to let some things go. My theory is that college is supposed to teach you how to prioritize, to learn how to handle impossible situations and find out what you are made of, but also to find out how to let some things go. But, when I know it is possible to get 100 I just cannot allow myself to submit something less. I am working on it. I also feel that this computer stuff is important because I want to find a job working with computers. So if I learn the stuff now, really well it will help me in the next class, and eventually in a job. But, still I am over stressing myself, to the point of craziness.
In other news. In just a few very short hours I will be taking Lily to gymnastics. She will be going in her "big girl panties" for the first time. I am so scared. She has been without pull-ups for a week. For two weeks before that she only wore pull-ups outside of the house. I know she is ready, yet, I am still freaking out, freaking out. I guess it wont be the end of the world if I have to scrub down the mats at gymnastics. Or will it?
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I Think I May Have A Screw Loose
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I saw my podiatrist yesterday. One part of my foot is still hurting (it's
been almost two months since the surgery). He thinks it may be one of the
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What kind of "job in computers" are you looking for? I guess that is one field, like, maybe medicine, where it's probably good that you're such a perfectionist...
Hope everything goes/went well at gymnastics today (tomorrow for me, right now).
That is the question of the day.
I am having so much trouble narrowing down what I want to be when I grow up. I finished all the general education requirements for my degree and I am working on picking a degree path. Taking classes from all the different computer fields. The problem is I like them all. I love web design and desktop publishing, but I don't have any artistic experience. I love the programming, I have only taken three classes so far, but it is fun. And I used to work as the traffic manager of a TV station which basically running the database keeping track of commercials, programs, etc. I loved that as well, organizing all those little details. For now I am taking the classes, learning and finding what I am good at and what I like. I am trying to figure out what skills are needed and which jobs are available.
Basically I don't know, I am seeking.
Any advice in very welcome.
I'll let you know what my advice is as soon as i figure it out.
i can tell you this much -- there's more money in programming than desktop publishing, from my experience.
you are totally making me miss school.
Hey there...I just wanted to stop in and wish you and yours a happy Thanksgiving, full of grace and gratitude. I do hope you'll get some turkey on Thursday! Or at least a little cranberry sauce!
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