You Can Do This

I woke up this morning at 4 a.m. to a crying Lily. I went to see what was the matter and she was sleeping on the floor between her kitchen and table. A tiny little area just big enough for her. I asked her what was wrong and why was she sleeping on the ground, she told me that she had left her babies in the living room last night.

I convinced her to get in the bed and tucked her in, I left her room and went back to bed. She was crying again within minutes. I am really a very lucky mom, because Lily has been sleeping through the night since she was about three months old and only rarely wakes me up in the middle of the night. I feel like it must be important, there must be something wrong for her to have woken me up in the middle of the night. I went back in her room and snuggled up next to her in the bed. After a bit of chit chat I realized that I was coming down with a cold.

I wonder if Lily is too and that is the cause of her waking me up. She doesn't sound sick but you never know. I got up and took some cold medicine and went back to sleep with Lily. I finally had to roll over and sleep with my back to her because she could not stop talking. And then she went to sleep. I got to be a little uncomfortable in my hanging off the side of the bed position and snuck back into my bed a little after six.

Lily didn't wake up until nearly 9 a.m. Which is unusual for her as she normally gets up between 6 a.m. and 7 a.m. I am working toward getting her used to getting up at 6 a.m. because that is what time she will need to be getting up when school starts. School is early around here. Lily was so worried when she got up. She cried for an entire hour. She hates having her schedule disrupted.

We normally start getting ready to leave the house at 8:45 a.m. Today we were just waking up and needed to do breakfast in addition to getting on our swim suits and sunscreen. We don't leave the house until 9:45 a.m. but we are slow and need a lot of wiggle room. This morning Lily was just over the top worried, she couldn't go to the bathroom or eat breakfast because we were late. It all dissolved into madness. I finally had to send her to her room to cry it out while I showered and I tried again later for the breakfast. It was such a struggle. Again I wonder if she is getting sick. There was just so much crying.

We finally got fed, suited and lotioned. We were ready to go with 15 minutes to spare. Enough time for me to water my flowers. Lily settled down and we were off to swim lessons. I could really feel the congestion in my chest while in the garage getting into the car.

When we got to swim lessons our teacher explained that Lily was ready to go to the next level, that she was far more advanced than most of the kids in the next level class. The reason they hadn't as of yet advanced Lily is due to the fact that they are short a teacher. Anyways, that is exciting because that means Lily will be able to have swim lessons without me in the water. A little tiny step away from her mom. We went on to have our class and I swear Lily learned to swim over the weekend. She is back floating on her own and now belly floating with her head in the water. She can jump off my leg and go down under the water and then get herself up to the top of the water to get her breath on her own. She is so unafraid, just needs some guidance on what to do with her arms and legs. Too bad the girl cannot listen.

She is still a bit fussy and I am still a bit sick. Hope it gets better and not worse. But, the day is shaping up better than I expected. While making coffee this morning after unsuccessfully getting Lily to stop screaming for about an hour, I was having to tell myself, you can do this, you can do this. And I did, amazed even myself.